Thanks for expressing all this. To piggyback slightly, I had a similar situation where I was aware of Tension early on but stupidly did not take full advantage of that knowledge (appropriately perhaps, I was too sucked into other things and was not present!).
What’s really incredible is that the experience, while admittedly different, was able to “forgive” us (in a manner of speaking) and still offer a remarkably personal *feeling* series of interactions. In fact, the more I talk to people it seems that nearly everyone at all levels of engagement came away with something unique to them. How? Who knows. It’s just really special — and that’s enough.