Finally finished reading through the journal, what a roller coaster. I’m now disappointed in myself for rooting for GK4 when she went rogue, and I feel like I’m a little closer to understanding Addison/@gatekeeper2’s actions.
This does not put the OOA in a good light.. I’m reading it as GK5 using the OOA’s space and opening up a dorm as a way to prey on at-risk women in the name of bolstering the OOA’s ranks. Stripping their new recruits of their names as a way to reformat their identities and become the mental slaves of the OOA. Disallowing social media to disconnect them from the outside world and encouraging the sharing of secrets in order to break them down and encourage trust from within the organization? Sounds a little like brainwashing, and a little like another SoCal family.
Knowing Four was planning on “cleansing” everyone, even witnesses, is by no means comforting, but also not totally out of character. We know we’re playing with fire when it comes to either side, but especially the OOA when it was managed by Four. I rooted for the chaos she brought, but only in the hopes that she would bring a wave of change from within the organization. Yes, that change would’ve come, but it would’ve been a broader change than I was comfortable with.
After reading this, I’m wondering what I’m even doing on the fence anymore. I’ve been hoping for enlightenment this whole time, and this journal has given it to me. I’m now seeing that the Gatekeepers are using their position to take advantage of their followers. I’ve been hoping for change from the OOA, as I’ve been generally unhappy with their direction for the past few months. Now it’s been confirmed that bloodshed is the only form of change happening within the OOA. The leadership is operating under fear of the one to come next. We’ve seen them erase the hopeful actress that was Addison Barrow and replace her with one more self-serving Gatekeeper (though a Gatekeeper who’s been ever so kind as to take a few minutes out of her vacation to read bedtime stories to us rather than give us the explicit context and clarity we’ve been looking for.)
We’ve now seen the goings on of the OOA, and @gatekeeper2 has done nothing to change the course of the organization despite all she’s been through. At this point the only way to find the light I’m looking for is through the BoS. Hope they have one more seat at their table.
Addison Born.