Sorry Sean, I didn’t read your message until just now. Truthfully, I’m just grasping at straws. There is so much conflicting information out there. I’m having difficulty comprehending all that I find. I started here: http://www.elecbk.com/numerology.htm.
Then this phrase stuck out at me (http://www.macquirelatory.com/rituals%20of%20freemasonry.htm):
1) Superior Masons deliberately lie to their fellow Masons, as those Masons “deserve to be mislead”
2) Explanations given to 95% of all Masons are wrong