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  • #11037
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    I offer humbly to our hallowed GateLifter 5, @thegilded, my noodly gains.

    OK @sovereignskies, I OWNED UP. WHERE THE HELL’S YOURS!?!?

    http://i.imgur.com/20cPWLG.jpg

  • #10967
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    This is gonna be so much fun. Welcome back, Four.

  • #10831
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    This looks like fun. Ok, I don’t exactly have much in terms of gains(I’m pretty much a noodle), but here’s what I’ll do.

    IF @irishalliwell120 puts up her guns I’ll put up mine.

    DO IT IRIS

  • #10736
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    GREAT, we’re speaking in code again. lol :p
    (probably not gonna decode it)

  • #10567
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    Heyo III! Glad to see you again.

    So the question posed is “What matters in your world?” Hmm.

    Personally, there’s not much that matters in mine. I kinda live life on a day-to-day basis. I stopped caring about the future or having ambition or goals years ago. I just get up, try to get through the day and go to sleep. Not much else. I live a rather quiet and some would even call secluded life. It’s not perfect-I don’t live alone and that bothers me to no end honestly-but I can easily imagine how bad my life could be and take solace in that.

    I used to have dreams. I used to want to do big things in the world. What changed me? Well….III, you responded to Michael’s idea of depression. I became depressed. Caused by those around me that I live with.

    Now, I just get up, go through the day and that’s it.

  • #10487
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    I’m all in.

  • #10357
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    Ok, read through everything. What a wonderful discussion.

    To the nature of our so-called “vulnerabilities” and the OOA’s use of them in some way(potentially malicious), should I remind all of us that in order to join the OOA we were required to submit a questionnaire, one that (assuming we answered said questions truthfully), would have lain bare to the OOA parts of ourselves that would have remained hidden from the public eye? And have they not proven time and time again that they are more than capable of prying deep into the digital world to showcase things about us that we long forgot or were surprised to see once more?

    So yea, of course the OOA knows things about us that most people probably wouldn’t. And I’m not surprised if they’re willing to leverage that knowledge against us if we transgress their bounds.

    Now, @addisonborn. You pose the question of “Why are you here? What is the point? What are you actually looking for?”

    Well then. Allow me to be a bit…vulnerable here. 😉

    Deep down inside, there’s a part of me that no one sees. And that deep, inner me hates a lot of things and a lot of people around me, all the time. Underneath the happy, pleasant exterior is a hollow, empty feeling that makes me feel like there’s not much in my life. Blames me and the people around me.

    When I found the OOA, when I first discovered Tension, that emptiness began to fill. Drip by minuscule drip, it began. I began to feel less and less like there was something wrong with me, like I was somehow disconnected with the world around me. Granted, I still live with people with whom I have…irreparable relationships with and being with them only intensifies the hollow feeling in me. But Tension…the OOA and the experience I’ve begun to sink myself into as a result…that puts a smile on my face. I was confused, stumbling in the dark but step by wonderful step, I began to move. I began to walk on a _Path that made me fill the void, even though I’m no where near LA. It brought me peace and tranquility.

    I recall the April newsletter, how it teaches us to find our “center”, to take hold of the sick, twisted and disgusting feelings that we shove deep into the recesses of ourselves and seal up as best as we can….and acknowledge them. When I began doing that, when I began to take the emptiness and focus it into a single sensation…..I stopped feeling bad about myself. At least, I started to control that feeling more and more.

    The OOA, in simple ways, has already begun to impact me and no one around me notices it. When I smile now, I smile with confidence and a tinge of joy. When news breaks out here on the forums, I rush to them-regardless of what’s going on around me. I was once staring at an ocean of possibility that the OOA showed me. Then I promised myself(here on the forums, if you dig hard enough) that I would be a part of this. I no longer stared at the ocean: I began to swim into its depths with no plans of leaving.

    The waters of the OOA are warm. I think I’m drowning. And I feel ok with that.

    AND FINALLY: to @irishalliwell120: “How very voyeuristic of them. I hope they enjoy the show.”
    That is the single funniest thing I’ve read on the forums so far. Thanks for making me laugh. 😀

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  • #10343
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    Hello there @irishalliwell120. Glad to meet you. I certainly agree that I hope to see you around more here if you are able to do so.

  • #10150
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    OK, yay! I can finally can say stuff!(Primarily after reading the various pages of stuff).

    So I’ve been mostly spending my time with the structure chart. Much like @atticus360, I’ve already noted that the “Sentry” position isn’t on the list. (@TheGuilded has provided a rather excellent reason as to why this may be.) If I was the one writing that structure chart, I would put the “Sentry” probably near “The Omega Council” considering that the full title is “Sentry of the Council”.

    It is also rather interesting to note that the Church of Anoch is simply another element of the OOA hierarchy. (also reminds me, I noticed on Facebook while browsing the Tension Experience page that some people recorded themselves kinda declaring that they were members of the Church. Just something I noticed…and want to do someday.) Having read the page with the heavy redaction marks, it seems that the OOA has existed for quite a long time under various aliases. I personally wonder just how deep the rabbit hole falls with the OOA and how…vast their connections are.

    Finally, there’s the page that looks like it was torn out of the OOA’s holy book. Tells what I’m interpreting as the creation myth of the Oracles and it also explains the meaning behind the number 242. Much like @addisonborn, I too wonder whether the Oracles of our time are the same as the ones in the myth. If so, I think it means they’ve been around for a seriously long time.

    Welp, those are my thoughts as of now. :)

  • #10114
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    Also, isn’t @mkarrett a Sentry of the Council? I don’t see that title in the org structure.

  • #11053
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    Awe so cute! UNICORNS!

  • #11026
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    Lucky. SO freaking lucky.

    But seriously, that’s wonderful news. I hope Addison is doin ok.

  • #10856
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    how the hell am I supposed to top that lol

  • #10843
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    Ok, ok ok. I won’t skimp out. I promise tomorrow I’m doing it-no lie.

  • #10118
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    Ah, I see! Yes, I understand. Thanks for clarification!

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