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“The louder your voice, the more we will show you”

Or you know, just leave you sitting downstairs having a coffee, and then try and cover it up as a mistake.
You were a fucking coward ~4, as were all the rest of you.
Don’t like that label? You still have my number, tell me I’m wrong, tell me some more bullshit about how my name tag fell to the floor – in the exact place Daela and I looked and found nothing.

And you wonder why people don’t believe that effort leads to reward? Feel free to send me some gas money, or a plane ticket, and I’ll come back, we can get that drink.

~4, you typed a lot, you ranted and stamped your feet, and you said next to nothing this entire time. Just like this letter, you could have simply said “Post More”, but brevity isn’t your style.

It’s a low bar for III to clear, but then you do all keep surprising us. Glory fucking be.

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~4 was too nervous to meet me. So whatever, bye ~4.

Well done on getting there so quick guys, you beat all of us that were coordinating together to figure out where it was.

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Good afternoon, Gatekeeper III.

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Again, Addison was deliberately and continuously reaching out to people you all know here, begging to find someone she could trust, crying and very directly asking for help. She was in physical and mental pain, she knew the helmet was hurting and changing her.

Use all the mental gymnastics you need to pretend that sounds like a girl following her dream.

@halfbloodfangirl – I don’t know if there is anything we can do now, but if another person starts asking people here for help, while breaking down in fear, I hope they’re not similarly discarded with a tone of “Ehhhh they sound happy! =D”

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I brightened the video, but can’t see anything significant, other than clarity on what was burning.

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I have had personal interactions that confirmed and qualified that none of this is her choice. I don’t expect anyone here to necessarily believe or understand that, but I can say, 100%, the Addison we knew did not want any part of this.

That’s why she called out to Russell and myself. There may be others that know the truth.

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Maybe you’re right. Maybe being outspoken about the things the collective group didn’t do was unfair, harsh, hurtful even. Maybe suggesting there seems to be mass delusional support of the OOA was a stupid thing to do.

Look at what’s happening to us. Look at what this is doing to us, and I mean that both to the group, and intimately to you personally.

I am not trying to anger or upset you, or anyone else. Your words hurt me far more than I feel mine did you.

I stand by my original statement. We, collectively, failed that girl, and are collectively responsible for what happened – confirmed via Tension’s own Facebook – and I hoped we could begin a conversation on why we did this, not snipe at each other about whether the words were too strong, or offensive.

What has happened to us?

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Really Mike? All you seem to be doing is mocking my concerns, and we both know none of your three suggestions are likely to be true.

What was I doing? Everything I was asked, and then some, to save someone this group professed to care about.

It must be lonely up there on your pedestal, looking down at my pathetic form that tried and failed to do anything. So much for not wanting to stand above me on stage, huh?

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This poster is incredible. That silence you hear in response, was to be expected.

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Just because they don’t want to be called a cult, has no weight or merit.

If it walks like a duck, and sounds like a duck..

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You’re a good soul, Susie. I would go to the same lengths for you, or any of my friends I’ve met here.

Yes, if Gatekeeper4 had been reaching out to us and screaming for help not to let them turn her, I absolutely would have fought as hard to help her, as should all of us.

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Russell, you and I spent hours anxiously trying to help. Had we not been in that position, we would still likely not be condoning or excusing what we’ve seen. We have very little to feel guilty for and the message was not for you.

Because of how I was made, however, I will never forgive myself for failing to be who she needed. I will also never forget the faces of those who took her.
One day, they will find it hard to forget my face, too.

For now, I just want the tears to stop.

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It is too late to help her, that time has passed.

Now is the time for reflection.

Your guilt, is your responsibility.

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Well, that all sounds warm and lovely.

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