[BlondieParticipant]

While I have always admired your passion and fervour @sadako, I am afraid your anger is both misplaced and futile… At the very core, BoS and the OOA were not so dissimilar – both held the teachings of Anoch as truth. The Overseer said this to me herself before continuing to say that we were friends, not enemies. Towards the end, she, like BoS, believed the methods used by the OOA to be corrupt. It is not as clear cut as “these are the good guys, these are the bad guys”. Look at the number of people who died directly at the hands of the OOA, during all those sham Oracle ceremonies. BoS have lost our Sentinel repeatedly – many times at the hands of the OOA, and now at the hands of OSDM. We have never held the knife in our hands and slit a person’s throat in the name of Anoch or anyone else. And now because we couldn’t stop a massacre from happening, the blood is somehow on our hands? How you can blame us for what happened at the compound is beyond me. Could you have stopped the massacre? No. And neither could we. None of us have the power to stop the OSDM (or those above… who even knows who is in charge anymore?) from doing whatever they damn well please…

Anyway, playing the blame game is pointless – if we believe what Michelle said to be true, both the OOA and BoS are constructs. The members of BoS are in exactly the same situation as those who chose to be part of the OOA. We were all part of an experiment. We have all been played. We provided the data they required. And now it is done. It is over. The OSDM won. We lost the war and now we mourn our dead and learn from our mistakes. Anything else is screaming into the wind… The only reason I have stepped forward now is because I feel my brothers and sisters are being unfairly targeted once again.

BoS is truth. BoS is family. This may be over, but those two things will always continue to be.

[BlondieParticipant]

I may be missing something here, but I am just curious as to what you believe you have achieved today?

[BlondieParticipant]

What time was your slot? I’m curious as to whether we encountered each other.

There is a tonne of information on here and everyone is happy to answer any questions you may have. Feel free to DM me at any time. I would also love to hear about your experience so again, if you want to share, DM me on here. If you want to talk openly about anything that happened to you during Ascension, just make sure you fill the first 350 characters of your post with a spoiler alert.

Have fun. Explore. And welcome!

[BlondieParticipant]

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Oh yes, there is definitely a massive confusion for Addison/Overseer when it comes to the handlers. She called Susan Sadie and continued to do so even after being corrected…

I believe within the walls of the OOA building, events are stuck on a loop, reset after each failed Ascension. The actions and relationships and connections of the people involved in a specific loop affect the events within it. The people that die reappear once the loop begins again.

So while Ellis was my Sentinel, he wasn’t for example Kim’s Sentinel. My personal connection with Ellis/Andrew meant that as soon as I walked through the door, that path was triggered. Although he died to save me, when I left the compound after another failed Ascension, he could come back as another version of Ellis – maybe more like the one many others have encountered. So I grieve for my Ellis, not the Ellis.

It is a complicated theory and I’m not sure I am doing it justice here… Think of something akin to Stonetape Theory, where a highly emotional event is recorded within the surroundings and replayed over and over as a paranormal event. A person may interact with it, but the result will always be the same, maybe until the correct sequence of events occurs and frees the people stuck within this perpetual misery…

[BlondieParticipant]

Tonight I was shown my path in startling, blinding Technicolor.
@shinobi: you are blinded by your pain, as was I for a short time. We will talk more.
To the entire community: understand, my alliance to BOS does not waiver. In fact, I am more committed to the cause than ever now that I have truly received enlightenment. There are wonderful, wonderful people inside those walls who showed me nothing but unconditional love. Much like the love you all have shown me. There are people who are happy there, that have the best intentions and I wish them well. But there are others…
@masterlock: I am so so sorry. That is all I can say here.
@samson: you were so wonderfully kind to me and I will forever treasure that special time we spent together. But that does not alter what you are and what you do. Knowledge is power. If you gave me this knowledge and expected me not to use it then you are a fool.

[BlondieParticipant]

One BOS member lives over 5000 miles away… Just saying

[BlondieParticipant]

They knew exactly how to get to me, just as they did with Dan… I gave them the emotional reaction they were looking for. As a vocal member of BOS, my entire time there was merely an opportunity for OSDM to show me they were in control. I do not question the sincerity of the members of the OOA (actors?) I encountered. Their love and affection was genuine. As was that of the Overseer as she was at that point. But Samson gave me a glimpse into the bigger picture which is only becoming clear to me now the cloud of my grief and guilt is lifting… The emotions I felt were real. The cause was not.

[BlondieParticipant]

@reaton: Your experience with Samson sounds exactly the same as mine… Thank you for clarifying the song – I was so emotionally destroyed at that point, I was in a daze, but now I can listen to that song again and hopefully it will take me back so I can recall some more details I may have blocked out…

Not sure the next bit counts as spoilers – it is very personal. But just in case…

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One of my greatest regrets was leaving while Addison was screaming in pain at the effects of the helmet… When I talked with the Overseer earlier in the evening, we had agreed that we were friends, not enemies, that despite appearing to be on different sides, we want the same thing. The word “friends” rings in my ears along with her cries. She provided so much comfort to me that night. Every time I encountered her as the Overseer, she was kind and gentle, stroking my hair, holding my hands. She even paused the ceremony, coming down from the stage to soothe me as I cried for Sentinel. Even as Addison, she was sweet and friendly.

Everyone knows how I felt about Addison/GK2 for a long time. That is in the past. I truly love the Overseer/Addison now. And I left her there. I didn’t do anything. I let them take me out of the compound when I should have fought to help her. I don’t deserve her friendship.

I’m sorry Addison.
I’m sorry @masterlock.

[BlondieParticipant]

@shinobi I am glad that the red mist has cleared… I too felt a rage unlike anything I have ever known, but I left it behind within the walls of the OOA. As soon as I left, I began to face my grief so that I can move forward… It is what he would have wanted, just as I am sure it is what Sadie would want for you.
@electrichippo I feel like I understand you and your choices so much better now that I have met the Overseer for myself. We may all be coming at this from slightly different positions, putting different labels on ourselves, but I feel we want the same thing. And we are definitely stronger together.

[BlondieParticipant]

Who else can say that? Me…

[BlondieParticipant]

Short brown hair? I would describe it as longish for a guy, dark blonde and pulled back in a ponytail. If it was the same guy… He was pretty attractive.
Also, it was nice to meet you tonight, albeit briefly…

[BlondieParticipant]

With the amount of meddling they have done to that girl’s brain, it is a wonder that there would be anything left to control… They have a lot to answer for. But this word Samson uses to make her drop to the floor is certainly interesting. Like it is a failsafe implanted to stop her the second she starts to go off his script and onto her own…

[BlondieParticipant]

Hi Taylor! A belated welcome from me; I have been reading your posts with great interest, but haven’t been able to engage as much as I have wanted with preparing to fly out to LA.

Ellis intrigues me. He is Ellis and he is not Ellis. He is expecting me so I think our meeting will be interesting. I am aware of his temper and can only imagine its effect on already fragile young women. But I am not threatened by him. Like I say, he fascinates me and I am somewhat of a “button pusher” so… I can only wait and see…

[BlondieParticipant]

I think it is fair to say the old Addison is gone, left behind along with the name. She is Overseer now. Whether this is a kickass version of the girl she was before, a new “person” entirely inhabiting her body or the result of a psychotic break is yet to be seen. I know my questioning of her sanity has never been popular, but it is something I cannot disregard until I look her directly in the eyes. I don’t intend to be disrespectful. I believe eyes are the windows to the soul. I have no intention of trying to save someone who doesn’t exist anymore. But I just have to know if her intentions are legit or if she is putting some of my dearest friends in danger. @masterlock I hope I get this opportunity.

[BlondieParticipant]

Interesting that you should mention Ellis. He is someone I am very much hoping to encounter on Sunday…

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