@blondiecamps – I assure you that especially now I am anything but cozy and sure. Perhaps in my disgust and fervor last night I spoke too soon and in too many extremes to properly get the point that I wanted to across. Please allow to rephrase my overly simplified point from last night:
It is absolutely a rough time right now. Many of us stood behind Four, myself included, and now she’s dead. That’s left many of us, myself included, without a side or purpose. I spoke too quickly before in saying that anyone who is without a side is a coward or unworthy, as that is the exact situation in which I find myself now. However, I am working to correct that. I’ve been contacting members of the factions. I’ve been soul searching on my own to see which of the sides I most agree with. I’ve been speaking with the unaffiliated to try to see sides I, in my fervor, may have missed before.
I was wrong to say that anyone without a side is unworthy, but anyone content to sit idly and say some variation of “I don’t have a side so I’m waiting for a side to prove themselves” is worthy of hatred. I’ve spoken with so many of you that are waiting for an entity, whether III or BoS or Addison/2 to reach out and hand you a reason for you to love them on a silver god damn platter and it is those that I accuse of weakness and unworthiness.
Ultimately you are correct. There is a leap of faith to be made. None of us understand the details of what’s going on, but we absolutely should understand enough to be invested, one way or another. I did not know Four’s abilities or powers or influence, but my allegiance lied with her because I was invested in her cause. With her death I am working to find that same dedication in the remaining factions rather than waiting to be fed an answer like a crying infant waiting for their bottle. You are right, in any other situation it may be more prudent to sit on the sidelines until an answer makes itself clear but in this situation those that do are weak in conviction and purpose, and should be aware that They Do Not Cater To The Weak.
Finally, to address your final point, it has never been the role of the Sentry to speak on behalf of the Council. Among the Disciples, that was the Scribe’s role. The role of Sentry is a policing one, outside of management, organization, and communication structuring I do not speak with any more authority than you do. My declaration of disgust for those content to sit idly is not coming from a place of power, it comes from my voice, a voice in the same crowd as you. At this point I would not dare try to convince someone to one side or the other because, as you said, there is ultimately a leap of faith to be made and that is a personal decision I would not dare make for another. However, as a man who feels strongly about this situation rather than a Sentry speaking with any authority, those content to sit on that fence waiting to be catered to deserve to have rocks thrown at them.
And finally, @blondiecamps, you are worthy. You will be the last one left not because you lack the strength to ascend as we will but because an ocean separates you from the ritual that we will attend. I believe everyone in this thread is ultimately worthy of Ascension. I’ve seen enough out of all of you to know that. It is knowing that fact that makes me so angry to see so many worthy people unwilling to contribute the strength of their voices to a cause because of their own uncertainty, laziness or entitlement.
I don’t want people to join a specific side. I just want people to stop waiting for a side to choose them.
